blue hour

hoowee!

now was the time to claim my birthright...

and that was to do what i wanted to do.

I admit, I'm a sucker for getting what i want.

I'm not spoiled nor a brat

but I just had a knack on keeping things my way.

I don't know,

maybe craziness peeped in.

Ok then, so here we go.This may sound way cheesy or sadistic in a more contemporary explanation. I wanted a guy badly that when i finally got him, i never wanted to let go.Yet, it ended up me turning the tracks for him. I became a doom cookie since then (and maybe until now) but people aren't surprised anymore. I really loved him so much but our affair (coz i don't consider it a serious relationship because he never was serious.duh.) was more like vengeful and demeaning. I looked like a rebound or something. He never cared about me though he acted like he do. It was fun being with him. Truthfully, I enjoyed being with him because he was the one guy I loved next to my father.

Yeah. I miss him very much. He knew me too damn well. He even told me not to focus on getting what I want. I liked the way he showed how he knew me. But then again, that made it easier for him to enter my life then just leave. Maybe soon i'll forget all about him, or maybe not. I tried my best but couldn't go any further. Those were my blue hours. Time when my heart was at its peak,couldn't get any higher, and soon may just drop dead.