INSMITTENATED

Well, i totally am. Smitten and infatuated at the same time. He just struck me with everything that he says. IDK. i don't wanna be a douchetardassface like i was before. I kept making my hopes high that somebody would be dumb to looooove me, care for a least. I'm too dizzausted from everything that happened way back in the sixties. Ugh. Its totally epuk - epic as f*ck. I mean, It's the same ol' story e-ve-ry-day. Me retelling what happened to US - moiz && the peckerhead. yep! gone berserk. like totally.

Now and again. Somebody came. Telling me sweet nothings and love-you du jours, and i don't wanna go for sherian. i ain't gonna bust my own sh*t no more. Argh. I'm just sooooo wayyyyyy confUHused. I feel like i'm a fey, though i am not. ugh. to think that he's so far from here. like REALLY far - outta Philly. +( which made me go putzing around everytime i go to bed. He's kinda strict && protective with everything. totally dramastic. but i find it sweet && me likey :) I just hope he's got all the gahoonies to go all the way here so that we'll be together, Thassall. +'(

coz i don't wanna get hurt anymore. i don't wanna be left alone again and again. i don't wanna get allf*cked over 'em gringos. most of all, i don't wanna love no more. T__T

this thing is outrageously gai. and i hope that i won't be caught off the hook again - for like the nth time.
i'm sowwwww afraid 'coz He#1 left me and He#2 asked me to leave. Isn't that annoying?! Why wouldn't anyone want to stay?!

here comes He#3. a total babeyeak. he's the cutest thing. hope he doesn't change ^___^

kuu.